Monthly Archives: July 2017

Announcing: Gone

I already unveiled this on Twitter and Tumblr yesterday, but allow me to also do so here: I’ve semi-launched an episodic fiction horror podcast called Gone.

I absolutely love horror/thriller/mystery podcasts – TANIS, The Black Tapes, Alice Isn’t Dead, Limetown, and Rabbits, just to name a few that I’ve been into. I already do a podcast focused on my particular shippy corner of The Walking Dead fandom, but I’ve been wanting to branch out and try some new stuff, learn some new things, and see if I can even vaguely approximate the pleasurable creepy of the podcasts I already adore.

The format is a kind of audio journal (because when you’re one person working by yourself with a cheap mic and Audacity that tends to be easiest) and the premise is simple: Our protagonist awakens one morning to discover that everyone in the immediate area – and perhaps everywhere – has disappeared without any indication as to what happened or where they’ve gone. At first everything – except for the total absence of everyone – appears eerily normal. Then, bit by bit, that changes.

You can hear a very short teaser at the link above, and the premiere will drop next Wednesday the 26th. It’s going to be updating every other Wednesday, with the caveat that, as I said above, I’m one person doing everything myself, and now and then I may simply not be able to keep to the schedule down to the exact day. But I’ll try my best.

As of right now I don’t have a Patreon or a tip jar or anything set up for it, but watch for that at some point soon. Also I’m still waiting on Apple Podcasts to verify it but once they have, you’ll be able to subscribe that way.

I really hope you like this, guys. I’m frankly pretty nervous about it. I care very much about doing it well. Hopefully I will, and you’ll enjoy it. ❤️

New stuff from me

YES, because it’s been a while. And these have actually been out for a while. But I swear, I’m developing an aversion to updating this damn thing.

ANYWAY. Here’s what they are:

Shape Without Form, Shade Without Color (Tor.com)

This is a weird, dreamlike, not very clearly explained piece of darkness. It’s also heavily autobiographical, and really it’s more a look into my particular state of mind during a really rough part of a really rough year. It’s about mental illness more than anything else – and I think that’s one of the reasons why, it seems to me, the reactions to it have been fairly polarized. I don’t usually like to talk about reactions to my own stuff, because I don’t like the possibility that I’m giving the impression that I go after negative reviews. I try to not engage negative reviews at all, ever, because it’s a really really bad idea in addition to being a dickish thing to do. But there are things about some of the reactions I saw that I found both interesting and frankly troubling, and I did talk about it some in a thread on Twitter. Which seemed to strike a nerve with a lot of people, in a good way.

I’ll probably write a longer post about this, assuming I can get my act together, but basically the reactions I saw fell, for the most part, into two categories: “I didn’t understand this/this didn’t make any sense/this wasn’t really a story and therefore I disliked it” and “yes, yes, this is exactly how it feels.

Which, in retrospect, isn’t very surprising. Again, I might – I want to – talk more about this at some point in the future.

AND

eyes I dare not meet in dreams (also Tor.com)

This was originally written for a society and technology blog – Cyborgology – that I used to semi-run with some friends, and it wasn’t even originally a story, per se. It only became clear to me after the fact; it was (and is) an explosion of anger that had been building for a while, about… Well, if you read it, it should be pretty obvious. A particular favorite deceased (or possibly “deceased”) character of mine makes a cameo appearance; those people who know the fandom side of my life will probably spot her.

Y’know, I didn’t even think it was that good at the time. I now think it’s one of the better things I’ve written. Like “Shape Without Form” it isn’t so much an actual story in the traditional sense. As I said, at heart it’s a rant.

I think it’s a fun rant tho.